~~~~THE DATE~~~~

Ok, so i have this new boyfriend, he's sweet, nice, we both have sick minds. But...I think he's embarrassed of me or something. He was holding my hand when o one else is around but when we got to the football game he pulled it away, same with the movie theaters, we saw District 9. It was....Interesting. It was boring at first, so we snuck into [link] then it ended like 10 minuets into it after we snuck in (Channing Tatum was looking smexy as usual) Ahem! So then we went back to District 9 and it got better! They had this weapon that was like a damned bazooka man! it shoot 3 bolts of lightning and blew the person/alien up in seconds! it. was. awesome. Best part is, we got into the R movie for free because they thought we were 17 and we didn't even pay for tickets

~~~~YESTERDAY~~~~

In P.E yesterday, Tanner(I've talked about him before) was making me feel like total crap. I asked if he liked making me feel that way, quietly he answered no. He told me he's not being me, however, I see it differently. He said I should ask his little brother how mean he is to him, I'm not interested in that. I want to know why he's constantly rude to me. I said, "Fine, you not mean. You obnoxious and ignorant to me and I don't understand why. I'm nothing but nice to you all the damned time and you treat me this way, I try and talk to you but you change the subject. Do you know that me not getting a response freshmen year isn't what hurt me? what hurt me was how you treated me KNOWING how I felt." I stopped talking for a while then I said "When Sophomore Orientation started, the first thing you did when you saw me was glare." he said he didn't and I told him he did so! I also told him the reason I first dyed my hair black was because I was so done and didn't even care anymore, I told him that I ended up liking it so I kept it that way. "You know....I only got my nose pierced because i thought I would be...I don't even know but it didn't get better, in fact, it got worse. Can you tell me why cause I'd really like an explanation."
then the bell rang. I love him still and I'm trying to move on but it's hard to when he always talks to me nicely in 4th period and treats me nicely like he likes me then treats me like crap the next period or the next day. we always ask how each others weekends go. He's never treated me this nice, and I like it. and strangely enough, the worse he treats me the more it draws me in...

~~~~JOSH~~~~

I had to give the ring back to Josh because he doesn't want to limit me or something, I don't know. So...yeah. Were broken up now...

I don't know what to think anymore.